These tangled threads with reference to what “once” was is pretty apt at this stage.
We don’t do Valentine’s Day anymore. One of us can’t remember that it is, and the other does not want to remind him that he doesn’t remember. We will go out to dinner tomorrow with friends and enjoy ourselves.
We also pick who we want to spend time with and who not. Friends who make us laugh and remember good times are what we need more than those with whom we share limited interests. Good friends are just there when needed and we, especially me, appreciate their being there.
But it is all good. The physical therapy is over. I need only keep up with the exercises and realize that some things are just not that important. And keep looking to take care of the things that matter.
Try not to muddy the waters so to speak.
And even if I do, find some clarity and move on.
Back to Australia in less than two weeks. Friends and family I can count on will be here for Lee. Using Skype and phoning will keep us keep in touch over such a long distance for the month I will be in that magical place.
And when I return home I am going to tackle all those closets and storage boxes and shelves that are loaded with the things that no longer matter. I look forward to the clarity that will bring to where I want to spend my time. Making more artwork that needs to find places to go seems a bit silly at this point. I might seek the advice of others….especially the art group.
I plan on drinking more herbal tea.
And I am going to slow down. That is the one thing my physical therapist kept nagging me about. “You need to stop rushing through the things that take time and concentration. You need to not be so obviously thinking about what comes next and work on staying in the moment.” “Breathe.”
I will leave with one more image of how it is for us now….a bit of the prickly along lines of holding things in place.
Til next week sometime.