Some Long Pauses Between Spurts of Doing

I really like the mysteriousness of this river. It moves slowly and stays quiet. A very good place to think. Such clarity comes shortly after dawn….a sureness that falters as the day goes on and the sun tries to coax in other directions. Isn’t that word “coax” funny looking? Now a word spelled the same way has two syllables and has something to do with technical wiring. The way the letters are arranged doesn’t even remotely look like a word that means gentle persuasion. I am not going to use it again in written text…it just looks odd and isn’t even trying to be gentle.  From now on it will be “persuading with kindness”. Just look at that word “persuading”. Say it out loud and you almost see a hand reaching out to take your own while the word “coax” just sits there like a peculiar lump. I won’t use it again.

Aside from that diversion and getting back to the river…an odd pair enjoying each others’ company.

This morning at the dam I saw this. We shared a knowing of aloneness with a slight nod of the head, then went our separate ways.

Mostly under the overpass at the river there are just rocks but a few times there are small bibles or books offering comfort and an offer to choose another way. This offering caught my eye with the addition of an empty pint of a short-lived diversion.

By the next day half of us will believe someone picked them up in hopes of being saved and the rest of us will think they have landed in the litter bin. Regardless within the week more will be placed under the overpass by a true believer offering salvation.

I have been busy drawing. The fish wine bottles hung outside my studio.

The pocket finds from the river walks.

And my cats, Patches and Sadie.

They watch me closely waiting for me to say things out loud to stop the quiet of being here by ourselves.

Today I mended some clothes and began sewing on my last cut out shirt. I read a bit of poetry from Ted Kooser’s book, Kindest Regards. It is a lovely book of memory and observation. And it feels like a poetry book should feel. Like someone coated the cover with talcum powder. The two hundred plus pages inside are that soft ecru color that just beg to be turned and thumbed and paused over.

Lee is the same. Not as many falls as last week. He keeps to his wheel chair and pushes himself up and down the halls. He eats by himself if the food does not require utensils. The nurse told me that this morning she put his French toast together into a sandwich of sausage which he finished off in no time.

Well I need to go talk to my cats and locate something for dinner.

Til later

 

Clearing A New Path

This little fellow showed up yesterday with his twin to pick through the greens in the front yard. They did not eat that much and I find it matters less if they do. I am thinking within the year I will have moved from here.

Marla and I walked the trail and looked up toward the studio on the right side of the lower level. We cleared out so much from there that went to the trash or into her car to take back north.

There is even a weaving loom and accessories in there. The things not in the car went off to the trash in two trips. We made a list of the furniture that will go with me and the pieces that won’t, the artwork I want to live with and the pieces that go elsewhere. We removed the gate to prevent Lee from falling down the stairs in the night.

In between we had wine, scotch, fairly good food and lots of laughs. I also showed her how to do white line printmaking so she could have her own interpretations of our two different morning walks.

 

I patched the wall and thought of all the other patching that will have to happen before I sell the house. It has had so many fun memories for me and now should start to make more for the next occupants. I have picked a new path and intend to step slowly and carefully along the way. Many months ahead of more sorting and packing before I leave this behind.

Next thing on the list is finish digging out whatever I put under my work tables in the studio. The Richeson etching press will not be going with me so I will sell it. The bed is 13″ by 36″ , comes with the stand and I am thinking $1200 is a good price. There are still two flat files of papers to go through. Why do we think we need so much paper! When I was teaching workshops at home and within driving distance it seemed practical to have some handy but not now!

So now my mind is on fresh starts.

And remembering and recording the past.

It is time for lunch and a good ponder on where to start next. Or maybe I will just ignore the clearing and cleaning today and write. It has taken me a while to get used to options again.

Til later….

 

 

 

Way Too Much Stuff!!

Since I did this journal entry four days ago there has been no time to get back to it.

After our early morning walks alternating between the river and the dam……

it has been sorting out my studio closet! What a mess! I collected so much thinking I might just use it one day. The first thing to pack up was all the pigment processing equipment and the collected colors from all over. Once I separated what I would take with me, the rest was boxed up for an enthusiastic student who has gone on to gain a reputation for processing and painting with earth pigments. I am so happy to have her grateful acceptance of so many travels, colors and materials.

Next to come out of there was everything related to sewing. What I will keep with me is in this antique shoe makers trunk filled to the brim.

When emptying out this trunk I found these.

Remember those Friendship Coverlets where everyone in the weaving guild wove a square with the idea being they would all be pieced into a coverlet. Well, thirty years later and they were still waiting. My daughter will get these now and hopefully will enjoy putting them together onto a backing fabric.

All of my prints from printmaking have been corralled into boxes and I will try to sell my Richardson Etching Press. I have a small tabletop X Cut to do whatever I need in the future.

Now the only thing to come out of that closet is the large flat file, three heavy duty shelf cases that will work out well in the new garage, and a work table for the drill press, etc.

I have lots of paper to go through and dispose of. Some will stay in the flat file to be taken by the fellow who is getting the board shear, some I will give to a friend who has been helping me do this and some I may keep.

So far today three more bags have been added to this lot of five headed for the garbage.

Also found in the back on a top shelf was a box of artist book sculptures. One I will keep, one goes home with my helper and two were tossed. This one was never exhibited. It was a found book about being a good preacher, an advice book of sorts that was quite anti gay. I shredded each page keeping them connected to the covers and spine to make this very large nest. The “egg” in the nest of misery is a book written by Joan Biaz in the days of love and acceptance. The red ribbon book mark is for the pain and loss through bigotry.

Why did I think I needed so much! One bag and one carton ready for a weaving friend to pick up and about three cubic feet of “possibles” for the friends from St Louis coming next month.

Marla who has hauled and helped me get moving on this project will be heading home with a carload.

I have taught her how to do white line printmaking and today she seems hooked. We are going upstairs to have a bit of libation before starting again tomorrow.

Til later

Reflecting

This is me now, reflecting and seeing things from new perspectives.

I am getting it together and readying myself for changes…fresh starts.

I took the above three pictures on my walk at the dam this morning. It is such a lovely place to get some clarity.

There is nothing that comes close to the stacked blues and greens of where I live.

A friend arrives today from up north to help me get some control over what goes and what gets thrown out or given away. There are so many things in the studio that I will likely never use. So much fabric, papers, books, bits and pieces that looked so promising when I brought them home. I will pawn off as much as I can on this friend and then try to find others who might see the potential and take them home to their own studios.

I will spend the week getting things in boxes and stacked in closets but only the things that will be passed on. Then I will be able to assess what is left on shelves and walls and plan on where they go when I sell the house. It is a big adventure that seemed so daunting just last week, but I am ready to get busy.

Speaking of busy….

New scraps are now in the journal.

We are treating ourselves to a day in Asheville this week. Just three of us going there to have lunch at an outdoor restaurant and keep our masks handy for any trips inside shops. I will not be buying ANYTHING is my promise. There is no room for it here.

I will be back in a few days to report on our progress.  Here is the last day of July fading off to the west.

Til later….